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Today's lesson in Motherhood

Andy has been a brat since last week, resisting sleep and throwing tantrums for every little thing. He gets himself so exhausted that his huge green eyes are rimmed in red and he can barely stand. Every time we'd lay him down in his bed, he'd get up and run back into the living room. It was cute and funny the first day or so, but I was so stressed out and tired on Friday that all cuteness was gone and I just couldn't handle it anymore. I lost my temper, cried, pleaded with him and eventually gave up. He was miserable and so was I.

I woke up this morning after replaying the sleep drama all weekend with a new determination to get Andy back on track.

I changed and dressed him first thing this morning. I gave him his daily waffle fix and we waited for his therapist to arrive. He didn't give her the same whiny treatment I'd been getting and I was a little jealous. She left, I gave him his lunch and it was time for the nap battle. I steeled myself to the inevitable crying, foot stomping, shrieking and ugliness and I did something different today.

Instead of depositing my firstborn in his toddler bed, kissing him and tiptoeing out the door, I sat down next to his bed on the floor and shushed. Every time he sat up I laid him back down and nicely reminded him that it's naptime, sleepytime, quiet time.

I sat there and watched his eyelids get heavier and I remembered that this time is short. He'll never be a tantrum-throwing two year old again. And like I miss the days when his chubby little hand gripped my finger tightly while I rocked him to sleep in our glider, I'll miss this too. I looked down at his hand-- now so much bigger and stronger-- with cuticles stained brown with Oreo cookie residue and I started to cry. Today it was so easy-- all I had to do was slow myself down, sit with him, be patient and he drifted off to sleep.



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Mar. 6th, 2006 07:23 pm (UTC)
Wow, you took the words out of my mouth regarding my whiny, sleep fighting, two year old.

I did the exact same thing last week. She wanted me to lay down with her and even though I had a hundred and one things to get done, I realized she wouldn't want me like this for ever. So, I layed down next to her and we both fell asleep. And, I was able to wake before she did and get stuff done. Double bonus
Mar. 8th, 2006 01:49 pm (UTC)
Poor Andy has been through so much change this month that I can't fault him for a little backsliding. So we sit with him at nap time and night time until he falls asleep. He feels more secure and it saves us the argument. We'll work on stopping this when things settle down here a little more.
Mar. 7th, 2006 09:01 am (UTC)
Awe! :)
Mar. 8th, 2006 01:53 pm (UTC)
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