purplejuli (purplejuli) wrote,

It was just as if everyone had swelled...

...and I certainly have.  So here I am, feeling a little uneasy about my plans for the weekend.  I'm elbow deep in laundry so I can pack to head off to Evanston, Illinois, for my ten-year college reunion.  I also have to pack for the boys' four days with my mother.

I have no idea what to wear to the class party at someplace called "Landmark Bar and Grill" in downtown Chicago.  I looked at the website and it looks kinda fancy-ish.  I have never been into clothes or fashion and being so overweight certainly limits my options.  My wallet does the rest of the limiting, so I am clueless.  What's appropriate? 

Many of my classmates have incredibly successful careers and I'm three years deep into stay-at-home mommyhood.  Normally, this stuff is only a slight twinge of insecurity niggling at the back of my brain.  Going out to NU and mingling again with these people I shared classrooms with a decade ago is making me feel less and less good about myself.  It's like my own, private Romy and Michelle. I promise to refrain from taking credit for inventing post-its.  I think we had them already when I was there anyway. 

I hate this.  I think the only parts I'm still looking forward to is hanging out with the people I still count among my friends and the football game.
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